Darkness and Life

Fear
Sorrow
Anger
Regret
A past that I'm not proud of
I must bear the scars
Of my mistakes
Does everyone see them?
Do they know why I have them?
I look over my shoulder.
I cry for no reason.
Do they understand?
Can they?
They admire my strength
And my love of life.
Do they know it comes at a price?
I have seen too much.

Cruelty
Ignorance
Violence
Death
Why must it happen?
God, are you there?
Your children are suffering.
Why must I be the strong one?
Why must I give up my innocence?
I am so young,
Yet I have lived so long.
I am barely adult,
But I have walked through battlefields.
Is it possible, dear God?
I am barely twenty,
Yet I have lived 200 years.
I hear another child crying.

Faith
Hope
Charity
Love
Do they exist?
They seem so small compared to the evil.
Can I allow myself these things?
Of all my fears, this is my greatest.
Each of these good things preceded evil.
But I can't stop the torrent.
I still have these feelings.
They need to be expressed.
How do I express them without harm?
This is my burden and dilemma:
To feel without harm.
Why is it so difficult?
I just want to love someone.